Oops, I did it again...but hopefully not the next time!!

So…today I was working on a project… silent…listening for that still small voice.  My thoughts ran back to a few recent moments where I was…shall I say…a lot more than a little angry.  In fact, I was completely enraged.  As I worked on this project, my thoughts were, “God, I’m so sorry…it’s no wonder I feel like I’m not gaining any ground.  It’s no wonder I feel like I’ll never be used in the capacity in which I know I was created for.”  I was truly repentant and no, I wasn’t having a pity party.  For a moment, I had let in some bad thinking.  What was happening is...although…or maybe because I am repentant, the enemy wants me to believe that because of my recent meltdown…putting it mildly…I will never get to be all that God created me to be. That is simply not true!!  Guard your mind in situations like this.  Learn to know who is speaking to you.  The enemy condemns.  God convicts.  There is a difference.


Then I heard that still, small voice.  He said, “Even Moses got angry.  He broke the tablets that had the Ten Commandments on them.  You’re only human…which is why you need me.”


I could have just cried in that moment, but I didn’t.  I felt relieved, grateful and loved.  I thanked God for sharing that with me.  I thanked Him for everything.  And, although I don’t see this as a license to continue this behavior in moments of anger at all, I do feel as though I’m in good company. (But, aren’t we all?!  Moses!!  I can’t wait to chat with him some time when I get to heaven.)  


Yes, I had a completely good reason to be angry. But, there is never a good reason for me to sin…which is what I did.  In my anger, I could have reached out to God, but I didn’t.  I was good and angry and I didn’t want to let go of it at that moment.


I think the next time I’ll stop, calm down and call on God to help me out.  Be angry, but don’t sin.


Anger is an emotion that is God given.  Even Jesus got angry.  The difference is that He didn’t sin while he was angry.  I think I better keep that in mind the next time the emotion of anger comes knocking.  Do you ever have this problem…or is it just me?  ;D 

So...who are you in the story?

This morning as I was reading my daily Bible reading, I’ve had a lot on my mind.  The recent terror of ISIS is so surreal to me.  At times I simply cannot believe that I’m living in a time where such atrocities are taking place.

I was reading Mark 5:21-43 where Jesus heals the little girl who was sick, but died while Jesus was on his way to heal her.  When he arrived he asked the people why they were so upset.  He said, “The child isn’t dead, she’s only sleeping.” At that statement the people laughed at Jesus, at which point, he had them all leave except for the parents of the girl and Peter, James, and John.  He then went on to heal the little girl.

So as I was reading this, I felt like the Lord was showing me something.  The world that we’re living in right now is crazy…but God is still in control!! Hallelujah!! As followers of Christ, we need to have a strong faith and trust in God.  Jesus put those followers who really didn’t have true faith or believe in him away from himself while praying for the little girl. 


Not too long ago, an acquaintance of mine was struggling with fear.  I was in a position to speak freely and heard the Lord speak to me what would help this person.  I told her of the scripture the Lord had brought to my mind and suggested that she speak it out loud because God’s Word never comes back void.  She kind of shrugged me off and then another in the group laughed and made fun of me because of what I had said.  Now, please understand that these were people who were on a worship team with me.  I could understand if people who didn’t know God would respond this way, but these were fellow worshippers of Jesus. This is much like the situation with Jesus healing the little girl.  Jesus put those who didn’t believe or take him seriously aside from the situation at hand.


Where we are in the history of the world now, we need to know who we are in Christ.

Do you know who you are in Christ?  Who would you be in this story?  Would you be one of the many who laughed at Jesus…one who doubted him…or maybe one who simply doesn’t believe at all?  For myself, I want to be the one Jesus allows to stay with him while he does the miracle of healing the little girl.  I don’t want to be the one who is asked to leave.


Search your heart.  Ask God to show you who you would be in this situation. 


I just read this morning that each of the 21 Egyptian Christians who were beheaded days ago yelled out, “Jesus is Lord” as they were losing their lives.  We need to know what…or rather who we stand for.  This is real, people.  You’re either a disciple of Christ or you’re not.  Choose wisely.


For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16       

The Age Of Much Knowledge...

Our society has been indoctrinated to believe that once you have attained a certain age/education/financial status/place in society, etc., you have all that you need in life. (Many times, people believe that they are wise rather than knowledgeable because of attaining one or more of these things!)  So often, people judge others by those worldly standards.  Jesus said to remove the plank from your eye before helping your brother/sister remove the splinter from theirs. Matthew 7:3-5 This is such a true and helpful statement.  Many times I’ve witnessed someone “advising” others when I could clearly see that that person was way off base about what they were saying. (Been there, done that, myself!!)  If we take a look at ourselves and “remove that plank” from our own eye, we would surely be surprised to see that what we thought was the case with someone may not be the case at all simply because our outlook through that plank was distorted.

 

The Bible says that a fool speaks much. Proverbs 29:11 A wise person listens and then speaks. Proverbs 1:5, Proverbs 12:15  Keep your tongue under control. Proverbs 21:23, James 1:26  Your words can hurt deeply, even if you never intended for them to do so.

 

I’ve recently had some folks make assumptions about me that were way off base simply because they were looking through the plank in their own eye.  Unfortunately, in many of these situations, it wasn’t my job to do the correcting(even though I wanted to!!). The Lord will fight for us, we need only be still. Exodus 14:14 However, there has been a time or two where I have felt it necessary to defend myself, so to speak.  I am called to be many things in God, but a door mat is not one of those things.  We are, however, called to love our neighbor as love ourselves. Matthew 22:39 Finding a healthy balance, as in all things, is the key.

 

In this journey of life, we rarely find someone who is at the same place in life that we are.  Be patient, be kind. 1 Corinthians 13:4-13  Don’t be a doormat, either.  Being a Christian isn’t an exercise in passivity, but rather a transformation in becoming more like Jesus.  Philippians 3:21, Romans 12:2 Jesus did not go around acting like a know it all, but he also was not passive.  He addressed things when and where they needed to be addressed.  He used wisdom. Age and knowledge, etc. will only produce wisdom when allowing ourselves to be led by the Holy Spirit, which involves repenting quickly when we sin and dying to self, among many other things.

 

Don’t allow yourself to fall prey to the “way” of our culture...in this "time of much knowledge".  And, be cautious, because much of the culture of this world has crept into the church, as well.  Read the Word; follow the leading of the Holy Spirit. (Don’t just take my word for it. Seek God in these things for yourself.) You will find that when you follow the Spirit of the living God, the worldly way of doing things is not the only way of doing things.  God’s ways are mysterious; they are not like the ways of man. Isaiah 55:8-9  Seek him for who he is.  Matthew 6:33  Ask him for wisdom.  He will not deny you. James 1:5  Look in the mirror of the gospel to find the plank(s) in your own eyes before you begin to help your neighbor with the much smaller splinter in theirs. James 1:23-24

Coffee and Conversations...

For years now, coffee shops have been my favorite hang outs.  In all honesty, when my son was in elementary school, the Lord was healing me from many different hurts from my childhood.  Life was very challenging, to say the least.  I had literally cut myself off from the outside world…with the exception of the barista at the local coffee shop.  On my way to pick up my son from school, I would stop and get a latte everyday. The small talk between the barista and me would sometimes, most times, be the only conversation I would have outside of my family for quite some time.  Over the next 10+ years, the Lord would not only heal me of most of the hurts from my childhood, but He has turned my coffee visits into a coffee shop ministry of sorts.

 

A little more than a year ago, the Lord led me to a person at Starbucks who was / is a daily customer, but who also seemed to be somewhat lonely.  I gave her a simple Christmas gift and invited her to Christmas dinner.  She happily accepted the gift, but turned me down on the invite for dinner, which I fully expected.

 

Over the next several months, I continued to get to know this person and develop a relationship with her.  From time to time, I would invite her to movies or offer her help, but would continue to get turned down.  Being turned down didn’t bother me.  I knew that, one day, things would change.

 

I continued to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit by inviting more people to have coffee with us.  On a typical Thursday at 3 at my local Starbucks, we now have 6 people in our “little” group and sometimes as many as 8. Where the Lord is honored, He draws people unto Himself. See John 12:32

Anyway, the time has seemed to go by quickly and the trust in our friendship has grown immensely.  Because I value her and her privacy, I won’t share details of how I have been led to help her…or how she’s helped me.  The details are not the point.  The relationship is the point. 


God draws us unto Himself, not because He needs us, but because He wants a relationship with us.  We are to imitate Him in our relationships. See Ephesians 5:1 They should be meaningful relationships, not shallow or superficial relationships where we only have something to do with others because of what they can do for us.  Unfortunately, that’s how many relationships are in today’s quickly paced world.  I have never been accused of that type of relationship.  In fact, I have actually been “accused” of putting “too much” into my friendships.  At the time, I couldn’t fully grasp the gravity of what was said to me.  Years later, I can see that there’s nothing wrong with the effort I put into my relationships.  They are meaningful and sincere.


I have come to care deeply for the “Starbucks lady” and I know she cares for me as well.  It’s all about relationships…true, meaningful relationships.  This lady needed someone to reach out to her and God saw me as someone who was able to fit that bill.  I don’t pat myself on the back for this at all.  But rather, I know that any good that I do in my life is because I am led by the Lord to do so.  The only good in me comes from Him and I choose not to pool up praise for myself, but, to pass the praise, glory and honor on to Him.


So, the point of this story is to be led by the Spirit of the true living God.  Allow Him to work through you.  God draws people unto Himself and He can use willing vessels to do just that.  It doesn’t mean that we go around spouting off scripture telling the world to repent or else they’re going to hell, even though there may be a time when we do need to do that.  We need to be trusted by others, not judgmental of others.  We need to invest our precious time in others.  And yes, from time to time, you may need to quote a scripture or two…or three.  It’s about being Jesus to others, not necessarily inviting them to church, although, He may have you do that, as well.  It’s about being the Church…not necessarily being present in a building.


So often, we are told to “bring others to church.” What I have found with many who don’t attend church regularly, is that so many have been hurt by the church that they’re no longer interested in attending.  #truth  They don’t realize that the hurt that was caused isn’t from God.  The hurt is caused by, usually and hopefully, well meaning people who actually didn’t mean to hurt them, but, more than likely never apologized, either.  God doesn’t forget about one single person on this earth.  He loves us all and wants that none of us should perish.  See 2 Peter 3:9


I urge you to look around yourself as you’re out and about in your everyday life.  Ask God to lead you to someone.  Realize that it may take time and effort on your part to develop a friendship.  Be patient as God is so very patient with us.  Pray for salvation for people.  Prayer is important.  It’s much more important than shoving the gospel down someone’s throat or a tract in their hand and walking away…which has happened to me.  I didn’t like it…and…that’s not how God works.  J  That usually does more harm than good.  Sometimes it’s about planting seeds.  Sometimes it’s about watering seeds that someone else has planted.  God knows the time and the place each person, who is willing, will come to Him.  It’s not us who saves, but God, Himself.  Let Him do the hard work.  He’s much more capable than we are.  J      

Waiting For The Right Angle

 Yesterday, I was out mowing the yard.  I really love taking the time to do this, although, I’m sure I look pretty goofy.  I put on headphones so I can listen to music, a mask over my mouth and nose to protect against allergies, my orange sunglasses, and then sound blocking headphones to block out the mower.  Yeah, I’m quite a sight !!

Anyway, as I mow the grass, I take that time to think and pray deeply about things. It takes a little over 2 hours.

We have a lot of trees, so it’s not just a straight line to get the job finished.  I have found that’s much how the Lord leads us in our walk with Him. He doesn’t always take us from point A to B to C and so on and so forth.  Sometimes, we’ll be at point G, He’ll take us to S and then the next thing you know, you’re back at point C again.  That doesn’t mean that we’re doing anything wrong.  It just means that’s the path in which He’s leading us.  He sees things perfectly from eternity, where we can only see things in the moment. (,,, barring any dreams or visions He may have revealed to us.)

As I was mowing one side of the yard, I circled back around and saw a patch of grass on the other side near a tree that I had not had the right angle to get to.  Oddly enough, the angle was perfect this time.  This reminded me of how God works.  His timing is perfect.  Sometimes we are just not in the right angle to do something at one time and later, we’re at the perfect angle to do exactly what we’re called to do.

In the past, people have looked at me and questioned why I wasn’t “doing more” with the gift that God has given me.  Some have even told me that with age, one has to step away from the music ministry, stating; “No one wants an old guy up there leading worship.”  The truth of the matter is that I was doing all that God had called me to do in that moment, and I really don’t care how old I am.  I absolutely would not receive that statement for myself.  After all, Moses was 80 years old when he led the Israelites out of Egypt.  Hallelujah !!  I have clung to that story for years !!

Over the years, I’ve learned not to worry or be affected by what others thought I was or wasn’t doing.(Even though, at times, that’s easier said than done.)  I am the only person who knows what God has called me to do.  I also know that when you ask and believe boldly for God’s will, the more challenging it is to attain that God given dream.  The enemy will fight you all the way when you are on a mission to advance the Kingdom or our great God.  It’s a lie that everything will go swimmingly because you’re a Christian and in God’s will.  God never said it would be easy.  In fact, He allows challenges to strengthen us, grow our faith and trust in Him.

Remember…never give up !!  Don’t listen to others when their goal is to tear you down because you’re not where they think you should be !!  When you feel like you just moved from point S to point C, don’t think of it as a deterrent.  God ordained your steps long before you were even born.  Jeremiah 1:5  Believe it and count it all joy !! James 1:2-3 And, remember that when the right angle comes along, God will move you in that direction !!     

What's Love Got To Do With It?

Today I celebrate the 21^st birthday of my only child !!  What a wonderful journey life has been since his birth.  Today is definitely a milestone in our lives.

Myself…growing up was such a different experience.  I wasn’t raised in a Christian home.  The words, “I love you” were never spoken.  I didn’t even know what love was.  I don’t criticize my parents for this.  It’s just where they were in their journey.  They have had their own obstacles to overcome and I love them deeply.  J

As a teenager I accepted Jesus as my Savior, but it wasn’t until I was almost 25 that I began to have a serious relationship with the Lord.

David and I had been married for 3+ years when Nicholas was born.  I will never forget the moment I held him in my arms for the first time.  Finally…FINALLY…I understood what unconditional love was !!  I had lived a month shy of 27 years on this earth and really had no understanding of what love was.  It was at that very moment that God removed the veil from my eyes and showed me how He loves us… unconditionally !!  I didn’t love Nicholas because of anything he had done…or said…or given me.  I loved him simply because of who he was.  He was my son !!  This is how God love us.  He loves us for who we are…His son / daughter.  He doesn’t love us for what we do / don’t do, what we say / don’t say, how much money we give / don’t give to the church, etc.  He loves us for who we are.

There is such beauty in truly knowing that we are loved unconditionally by God.  It sets us free to be who we were created to be.

God gave His own Son, Jesus, so that He might have a personal relationship with us if we so choose.  He loves us that much.  John 3:16  Do you know that you’re loved today?  

Knowledge For The Spiritual Man...

 Back in the day when Jesus still walked the earth before His death and resurrection, the Pharisees, more often than not, had issue with Him.  They would do anything they could to attempt to “trip Him up,” but they never could.  He was, is and will always be perfect.  The thing about the Pharisees is that they were highly educated men.  They knew the scriptures…but yet…they couldn’t even recognize the Son of God, the One the scriptures foretold.  At one point, Jesus even called them “white washed tombs”…meaning they sure did look good on the outside, but on the inside, they were rotten and disgusting. See Matthew 23:27

Today, my concern in these amazing times of great knowledge is that knowledge, both outside and inside the church, is clouding the vision of our Great and Amazing God.

I have had amazing conversations with folks who have extensive knowledge of the Bible as well as many other books that contribute to the knowledge of the Bible, but yet in their own way, doubt some capabilities of the Holy Spirit… as if the Creator of all things is somehow unable to do certain miracles!!  Now, understand me clearly here…I don’t say this to try to hurt anyone or point fingers at anyone.  I say it because it’s been a subject that’s been on my heart and mind for many, many years.  And…lately it seems that much of the persecution that I’m witnessing is coming not only from outside the Church, but much of it is coming from inside the Church…from other Christ Followers.  I refuse to mention any names in this writing.  This is not about calling folks out on what they do or don’t believe.  After all, God gave us each a measure of faith.  See Romans 12:3  It’s God who removes the veil from our eyes so that we can see Him more clearly.  See 2 Corinthians 3:1-18   It’s God who gives us the knowledge…but how are we using it?  Are we using it to tear each other down, or build each other up?  Are we allowing knowledge itself to be the box that keeps the Holy Spirit from working effectively?  After all, Jesus himself said that He could not do miracles in some places due to the lack of belief.  See Matthew 13:53-58 This is not the picture of the spotless bride that Jesus is coming back for!!  In fact, often times the vision I see when others doubt the authenticity of another Christian, is that of the Pharisees calling Jesus blasphemous.  Again,… Jesus likened the Pharisees and scribes to white washed tombs!! 

When are we going to learn to accept each other for who God created each of us to be as Followers of Christ.  We’re not in competition here, though some might argue that fact.  Even the twelve disciples argued over who would be the greatest. See Luke 9:46  Maybe we should learn from their mistakes instead of trying to be the best or having the most knowledge, or worrying about whose church is too small or too large, too loud, not loud enough, traditional music vs non-traditional music or vice versa…etc.  The arguments seem endless!!  Stop trying to stop someone from being all God made them to be simply because you don’t believe it for that person!! Maybe we should simply work together, accepting the fact that not everyone is going to have the same doctrinal beliefs as Christ Followers.  Maybe we should strive for excellence…both at individual and corporate levels.

Where I am unable to reach a lost soul, you can.  And, where we are unable to reach one…someone else is able to reach them.  This is possible only with the workings of the Holy Spirit through us.  It’s us making ourselves available for the God of all Creation to work through us!!  It’s. Not. About. Us.

Let’s stop letting pride, knowledge, doctrinal beliefs…or whatever, get in the way of being true Christ Followers.  We can know the Bible inside and out, but if we don’t allow the Author to work through us to reach the lost, sadly, we are ineffective as Followers of Christ.

For years, my saying has been “don’t keep God in a box.”  And, I must admit that in my walk, from time to time, even when against having borders for God, I still manage to do just what I don’t want to do…have a border here or there.  The beautiful thing is that God knows that I don’t want Him in a box, but He also knows my imperfections…better than I know them myself.  I want to see Him for EVERYTHING He is and ever will be.  So, when this happens, He ever so gently shows me the error of my way.  I encourage you to do the same.  Let your boundaries go!!

Don’t let your head full of wonderful knowledge…that is God given by the way… become the box that keeps God from doing all that He’s capable of doing… like those in Nazareth who believed they knew Jesus so well that they believed Him incapable of doing miracles.  Don’t be that guy!!  Seek knowledge…but more importantly…seek the Giver of that knowledge.